Finding direction

I have recently been lamenting the lack of direction in my life. I still don't know what career to pursue. I have no idea what I'll be doing next year, or even where I'll live. I can't decide whether to apply for graduate school now or wait until next year (if even then). I don't even know what program I would apply for or at what university.

In some senses, everything is very much up in the air and uncertain. Yet, I believe that I have more direction now than I have ever had. I even feel almost content at this present time of my life, living and working in Bowling Green. I feel that God has placed me here for a purpose. Through much reading, spending time in deep discussion with friends, experiencing Orthodox liturgies, praying and fasting regularly, I am finding spiritual direction that I have never had before. Peace is slowly seeping into me and dispelling confusion and distress. What a wonderful feeling!

Riding my bike in Bowling Green feels liberating. Biking is one of many ways I have been breaking free from bondage to the need for having. I am trying to simply be. To live as God intended, in communion with him and with others is a refreshing escape from the isolation and consumerism of our modern age.

I still have such a long, perhaps rocky and jagged road ahead of me. By God's grace I will remain on the true path, and He will give me direction and meaning.